When we talk about commitment phobia, it is automatic to assume we are referring to a man! But what if the woman is the one with the phobia? What happens then? Is she called an emotionally unavailable person or is she just too scared of what the future might bring??????
I have been speaking to a guy through an arranged marriage proposal through my parents-- and yes, even tho i am modern in some ways, i still believe that my parents know best when deciding on a partner....... He is the most nicest person I have ever met. He is everything I have dreamt of. He hasnt met me tho we have seen each others pics and on webcam but according to him, he has fallen in love with the kind of person he knows I am. I am the one who is hesitant to take the final step of acknowledgement that yes, i mite be liking him too as a person. He is caring, romantic, sweet, mature, sensible, down to earth, chilled out, can cook, dance, sing......... :). (sounds like a catch huh?)
Knowing that the pros so far outweight the cons that I am not consideing that there are any cons as such, I am still scared of the future.........I think I am just scared to trust my intuition after the badgering it received a while back............. I know he is the kind of person I have always wanted for myself, someone who will make me feel secure about ourselves and who I know will never cheat on me nor put me down, someone who can be a friend and a partner..........but then what scares me..........
Every day,as i get closer to the D day, i think.omg! I am getting to the point of no return!!!!!!!!!What if????????I know I shudnt think like that but I cant help it!.......
I trust in God and know that things wudnt have come so far if He hasnt willed it but .............
Is it normal to feel so scared about the ultimate test of life?????????????????